If You Want to Destroy My Sweater.....

So me and Jane broke up. Turns out she was never the girl she led me to believe she was, and was probably plotting against me the entire time we were together, just to break my heart, cause she was bored. Of course, she didn't put it that way when she left, but had to resort to pathetic excuses instead. She mentioned that I couldn't stop hitting on her friend.....let's call her....Amy (remember, not her real name. I need to give my friends some anonymity ;P). She said she thought it was inappropriate how I always kissed Amy hello whenever I saw her, apparently forgetting that that's how I just greet people sometimes. She also thought it was "insensitive and weird" when me & Amy decided to see "Where the Wild Things Are" at midnight Thurs night without her. But it was the Arclight, and reserving more than 2 seats at a time is expensive. When we went to reserve another the next day, the seats next to us had sold out. I guess I was just foolish for thinking a true partner would understand that...... :(. Oh well.

See, Amy was now my friend too, and more than that, I realized we had more in common than me and Jane did on some issues.....not in a romantic way! But we've both been HUGE, hardcore fans of Maureece Sindack all our lives, and have both read the entire "Wild Things" series multiple times, so it was only logical that our first priority would be to see it with each other. On the subject of the film, we both thought it was the best movie ever. Of course, I related to it best, if only because it reminds me so much of my own life: much like Max, I've felt unloved very often in my life. Through no fault of my own. I never start drama, but it always manages to find me, and when it does, people seem to get angry & cut me out of their lives for no reason. The wild things in the film in many ways symbolize this drama.....except that in real life, drama doesn't crack jokes and come with a cute, smiling face. It's faceless, and it always wants more of me. Karen O of the Yeah Yeah Yeahs crafted some wonderful songs for the film, and in the interest of combating all the h8rs out there, I've chosen to post a song that deals with LOVE, not petty drama.

Karen O & The Kids - "All is Love".



Jane's moving out, since I guess just cause we're broken up we apparently can't be roommates. I was prepared for this to totally suck, but it turns out Amy's lease is up next month anyway, so she's moving in instead. All of her friends are against her doing this, because they think it means we're gonna start dating, but that shows how much they know.

Also, Jane has masterfully turned them against her now FORMER friend, Amy, like a conductor tunes his orchestra. So in the spirit of summing up the shit show of my last relationship with such a PETTY, inconsiderate hungry tiger, here's Lady Gaga, with a brand new single off the re-release of "The Fame" (Now titled "The Fame Monster", possibly in a nod to my ex-gf):

Lady Gaga - "Bad Romance"

In many ways, Lady Gaga resembles Amy: she's brilliant, great in bed, fearless and filled with desire to change the world. They both are also a couple notches below "conventionally attractive", but that's ok. The supermodel look has never been my thing anyway :). Anyway, I was gonna write more, but Amy needs help moving in (she's gonna sleep on the couch for a week or so til Jane finds a new place). That might seem super awk to some folks, but we're gonna try & be mature about it. Til then, here's one more song dedicated to Jane, which has been in rotation on my i-pod all summer, but finally rings true for me:

The Big Pink - "Dominoes"